2 weeks more

in exactly 2 weeks from today at this time i'll be married!!!
its a little overwhelming right now. and yes i am excited, yes i am a little nervous too. been having nightmares of cards not reaching people on time, and right now seems like tht particular nightmare is materializing

decipher this

My house says to me, "Do not leave me, for here dwells your past."
And the road says to me, "Come and follow me, for I am your future."
And I say to both my house and the road, "I have no past, not have I a future. If I stay here, there is a going in my staying; and if I go there is a staying in my going. Only love and death change all things."

-from Sand and Foam byKhalil Gibran,

If I Were A Book

No this isn't one of those essays we wrote in school, it is in fact the name of a site which allows you to write or upload a novel or short story you have written. If a publisher likes it enough, your book might just get recognised.

Yes I know I haven't updated my blog. Yes I know it has been very very long since I last updated the blog, but I lead a very mundane life nothing interesting to post and yeah I've also been busy and lazy.

Alright so here goes. 1 month and 8 days left for my wedding. I've been waiting for the 'wedding day' every since I started reading fairy stories with 'happily ever after' endings. I had it all planned out in my head, the details would change over time as and when I came across different scenarios, each more romantic and fantastic than the previous one. Now my real-life wedding is fast approaching and I have realized that the focus is no longer on the big day, it's actually on the rest of my life, a life I will be sharing with a man I love deeply, and his family - a family which, after the exchange of vows, will become a new but important part of my already existing family. It's all so different from what I used to imagine a wedding or a marriage was all about. It's nice, it's a little daunting, because this is something new, but it is nice.

And yes of course I am excited about the wedding day. Which girl wouldn't be. I get a beautiful gown, new shoes, new clothes. I get makeup put on for me by someone who actually knows how to go about doing it. My hair will be done up well and hopefully, won't, by the end of the evening, be the mess I normally find it in. I'll have all the people I love and care about with me on the big day, what more could I ask for?

I am so excited that all my cousins are going to be here. It would have been awesome if certain 2nd cousins could also be here, but one is getting married and the others are not in the country :( I'm gonna miss you guys.

So that's it for now. I have exams starting on Monday and I really must start studying!

diets and studies and gowns!! oh my!!

i'm writing a post without writing the title first. the title to my posts are never significant or relevant to the post anyway, so it's cool. saj told me a while ago to write about my 'diet' (which i hadnt started when we had the conversation, but i have now) so here i am writing about my diet! i started it about 2 weeks back i think, maybe 3, not entirely sure. i havent been completely successful but i'm taking the 'something is better than nothing' route here. ive given into temptation and had rice i think twice, potatoes i haven't touched and chocolates i havent given up on much yet, tht will stop soon. i am drinking a lot more water and having more veggies. i actually had snake gourd for lunch today :S i hate it. how do people manage to stick to their diets??

anyway on to other news. i've started my B.Ed classes. so far so good. it's hectic but its not too bad, as yet :) most of the teachers are great. my english method teacher is amazing. that's what a teacher ought to be like. she's encouraging, she's lots of fun and gives us a whole lot of tips that we can give children to help them remember grammar rules and poems. just makes the idea of teaching so much fun!

ive decided to go to a new seamstress for my dress cos i've been told by a whole lot of people not to go to the one ive chosen... apparently she's not that good anymore. well so i'm scouting around for a new seamstress and ive got to still gather my courage to tell the other one i won't be getting the gown she helped me design stitched by her. yeah i'm also looking out for a new gown pattern!

ive had nightmares where nothing was ready for my wedding which was i think the very next day and i hadnt got the cards printed or the gown stitiched or anything done!!!!. alright i had that nightmare just once but im afraid it might turn out to be true!!!!!

now i got to come up with a title

ghana jungle hai!

work is fun! i love work, especially the sort i'm doing right now. i'm at dad's office, dad's away and left me in charge. all i got to do is pretend nothing and no one exists but me and the computer. it's not that difficult to pretend because it actually is just me and the computer and yes there is the odd table and chair and a wine rack filled with wine, good or bad i don;t know, i;m not a wine connosieur ( i think i spelt it wrong), a telephone with rings sometimes, a fridge which is empty of things that havent already gone past their prescribed shelf life, i think they are kept there so that there is something u can throw at people just incase a food fight arises. i have been instructed not to answer the phone when it rings, all i need to do is be online and do whtever it is i do online oh and make sure i lock the door when i leave. work is fun when the work ur doing isnt ur own!

in the 10 days ive been here, ive been to a national park, gone on a canopy walk that wasn't really as scary as i thought it'd be, stayed at a really good beachside hotel, ate at a restaurant that was right in the middle of a crocodile pond, just escaped being devoured by a really monstrous 4 feet long croc. drank a lot of alcohol with parents around... with parents buying the rounds :D, didnt get drunk :( seen a lot of cute guys, didnt see too many good clothes, ate kitkat dark chocolate... yummy... also ate chocolate fingers, kitkat and chocolate fingers are my favourite chocolates. got my very first wedding present, visited a casino, didnt get drunk :(
bought random nonsense, like stationery we can get for much cheaper back home, spoken to jaison everyday, its almost as if we're in bbay :P , tried to remember bdays, dad and i downed a bottle of wine in one sitting, i think he likes having a drinking partner at home! it's getting hot here. i'm going to go see if i can find the remote for the ac. out of here

i've been on my own for the better part of the day and being alone sure is boring after a couple of hours. i've watched the serials i wanted to watch, checked my mail and orkut a zillion times, even mailed some pics that id promised certain people i would mail weeks ago, bought some of the stuff i needed to buy, made attempts at cooking then gave it up cos it was too hot, i also messaged and called friends i haven't spoken to for so long that they can only be called acquaintances now! and i was forced into mopping up the kitchen because it was flooded with water dripping down from the ceiling. there is nothing more left to do. i don't even have a good book to read, except for some of my old favourites, one of which seems to have disappeared.
i miss mom. there would have been some amount of noise in the house. this silence is deafening. no i don;t want to watch tv anymore, i'm bored. nor do i feel like listening to music. i just want to have people at home.
on a slightly different note i'm wondering if i should get a gown stitched or just wear a sari for the entire wedding. i think ill look ugly and terribly pregnant in a gown. people will probably end up thinking i'm getting married because there is a baby on the way!
i'm going to go read

NEW POST!!!!!!!! YAY

EEEEEEKKKKKKSSSSSS
who signed in with my password and changed my cool, goth looking blog to this pink girly interface. yuck. it makes me want to retch.
i'm in chennai now. staying in this house with ac, thts the coolest part of the house... literally.
tomorrow is kavith's reception.
we had loads of fun in nagercoil, especially on the eve of her wedding. i got slightly tipsy on 2 tequilas, manoj and sajjeve had 10 and after tht all sajeeve did was ask "tell me how many ppl are coming for the spiderman movie and what time show shouikd i book." he repeated this till he fell asleep and sometime in between messaged his friend telling her to book 12 tickets for the 12th of may!!!!
anyway even kavi got drunk, but all she had was one shot, poor girl was feeling so dizzy. and all the aunts and uncles were trying to get her to feel better and not let her dad know she was tipsy. that was really cute.
we went to the waterfalls, it's so commercialised, and ppl coming there look like folks who havent had a bath in years.
what else to post now.
nothing
bye